(not necessarily in that order)
Feeling a bit untethered these past few days.
It’s like I can feel the next shift coming but I can’t quite see what direction it’s going in.
I also think some deeper insights are trying to surface. All in all, not a comfortable moment in time.
I think some of the little changes are starting to show some little results. Not a whole lot, perhaps. But still, enough to show that shifts are taking place.
Right now I’m particularly appreciating the way things that are in alignment with the new (little) changes just “happen” to show up, adding energy to the gradually increasing magnetism. Which then adds to my inner motivation.
And it all starts with being okay with itty bitty little changes. 😊
A lot of things in the world of Ananda (and thus of Ananda Music) are shifting and moving and evolving. It’s rather disorienting, especially since some of it is big and involves other departments, which means months worth of development and implementation to get it right, while also figuring out the best way to function in the meantime.
For years we’ve been stretched (way) out of our comfort zones as directors and managers, and now I feel (fear?) it’s about to ratchet up another few notches. We’re getting into so many projects that involve ever-increasing knowledge of technology, finances, marketing, global issues, etc…seemingly ad infinitum!
On the one hand I believe we may very well be on the verge of absolutely amazing new things for Ananda Music. But on the other hand, I’m beginning to feel like I’m reaching the limits of what my musically-trained, flute-player’s brain can cope with.
Something shifted in a major way for me this past Sunday.
I came onto to the path later in life than many of my friends and gurubais, plus my decades of experience as a freelance musician — with a lifestyle to match — wasn’t a big help when it came to early rising and consistent routines.
Moving to Europe and back, then a few years later to Los Angeles and back, further disrupted my routines and I’ve been struggling — literally for years — to reestablish a strong, regular practice. Very frustrating.
But last Sunday I experienced a breakthrough! Afterwards, for three mornings in a row I spontaneously woke up earlier than usual, before the alarm, with a strong desire to meditate in the Temple of Light. I didn’t say anything (even to Ramesha) cause I didn’t want to jinx it, but I can now report that my “streak” lasted the entire week and I’m eager to extend it further. 😊
I’m so very, very grateful!