Making the wrong choice

Today I proved to myself — yet again! — just how important it is to stay focused on the positive: affirming my goals; noticing what’s working; thinking good thoughts; and doing things that raise my energy.

How did I prove it? By doing the exact opposite and watching myself get bogged down in negativity: stewing over my problems; noticing what wasn’t working; thinking worry thoughts; and doing things that lowered my energy.

I let the actions and/or omissions of a couple of people get under my skin; complained about it to several friends; and proceeded to fret over it throughout the day.

The end result was that I felt agitated and restless; got hardly anything accomplished; and ended the day in a mood!

I know this already, yet I still forget sometimes just how crucial it is to keep my thoughts and energies high and uplifted.

Things we take for granted

Whenever I have a day or two of feeling yucky, I’m soooo relieved to have my full energy back again.

It’s interesting that when I had my one-day intestinal thing on Monday, it occurred to both Ramesha and I that maybe I was getting a small taste — just a little hint — of how I might feel after the bone marrow transplant.

And in reflecting on it further, I’m beginning to understand that the reason I find it so shocking to not have energy is because I take having high energy for granted! I feel that it’s my due, because I’ve always had it.

Well, that’s been my good karma in this lifetime, but I realize that it has limited my ability to comprehend and have compassion for people with a different reality.

Which got me thinking about how we all have at least one “something” that comes easily and naturally to us (for me, it’s been good health and high energy, as well as liking people and having people like me; someone else might be naturally good with money or extremely disciplined, etc. — you get the idea).

But often we can tend to get impatient with someone who struggles with the thing that comes so naturally to us. We don’t understand why they “don’t just…” (snap out of it; get more organized; just do it; etc.).

And maybe this is why sometimes we get a little wake up call, a period of time (hopefully short) when we’re without the thing (that natural gift or ability) that we usually take for granted. Because then we’re experiencing it from the other side and maybe — just maybe — expanding our awareness and learning compassion.

Something to think about.

Sweeping the patio

Late afternoon glow in our front yard today.

At yesterday’s Sevaka retreat, Jyotish spoke about how after Yogananda’s experience of going into samadhi (divine ecstasy or bliss) his guru, Sri Yukteswar, gave him a broom to sweep the porch.

Well, we’ve had a jam-packed weekend, full of satsangs, meetings, and rehearsals, and with lots of performing and recording. And while we didn’t reach the heights of samadhi, there was a whole lot of joy and really high energy.

Not surprisingly, by this afternoon I was pooped and not entirely sure what to do with myself.

But then I was inspired to take my broom and sweep the patio. Which was followed by finally potting (or re-potting) a number of plants that had been patiently waiting to receive some attention.

And it was the perfect balance to all the energy and intensity. Just me, my broom, flowering plants, sunshine, sky, birdsong, and peace.

Our little patio garden is growing.
I forget what this plant is called, but I’ve been admiring it for years in various cities around the world. I was so excited to finally find it at Weiss Brothers nursery in Grass Valley.
The one olive on our olive tree is ripening quite nicely. No idea how we’ll know when it’s fully ripe (or what to do with it then)!

Positive, helpful, proactive!

At Ananda Assisi they’re “living the experience of the Coronavirus with high and positive energy and… as a really good opportunity to practice what we know!” Toward that end, they’ve decided to follow Yogananda’s Nine-Day Cleansing and Vitalizing Diet as a group, inviting people from all around the world to join them (when you go to the above link, scroll down to read the text in English)!

Here at Ananda Village, a group of friends is adding energy to the endeavor by pledging to practice the Energization Exercises three times a day!

Take that Coronavirus!