Swamiji: gone 10 years today

We were living in Los Angeles ten years ago when the email arrived saying Swamiji had left his body.

My immediate response was utter denial: “NO!”

Now I can hardly believe it’s the ten year anniversary of Swamiji’s Moksha day. Although I miss being in his presence — hearing his laugh, seeing his smile — at the same time it feels like he hasn’t really gone away at all.

Maybe he’s not right in front of me, but it’s as though he’s simply visiting a different Ananda community at the moment (a very long moment!).

And maybe we’re no longer receiving emails and messages from him, but he’s still managing to instruct us in what we should do.

Thank you, Swamiji. My loving gratitude is yours forever.

Memories of Swamiji

Swami Kriyananda left his body nine years ago today.

We were living in Los Angeles at the time and when we got the news, I didn’t handle it very well. My immediate response was to say “NO!” — repeatedly and with strong emphasis.

A few days later we were on our way to Assisi, for Swamiji’s funeral. It was the shortest trip to Europe we’d ever made; four days total, if I remember correctly.

It’s now almost a decade later and I still miss him every day. And yet I also feel him with me every day as well. It’s kind of a paradox.

I hope with all my heart to accomplish all that I can in service to him through his music, and I feel him helping me to do so.

Thank you, dear Swamiji. 💗