A humbling experience

I would never have guessed that receiving this much love, this much support, this much attention would be such a humbling experience.

But it is.

In fact, I’m beginning to think this is the first big lesson — test, even — of my health journey.

The fact is that I’m not all that comfortable with lots of attention. Of course, if I say that to someone, they’re surprised, because I’m obviously quite comfortable standing up in front of lots of people and performing.

But you see, when I’m performing, it’s not about me; it’s about the music and that makes all the difference.

So, I understand that a big part of my job right now is to focus on being open and receptive to the blessings that are pouring in from all sides.

I’m concentrating on breathing it all in and accepting that God really does love me this much.

It’s humbling

I still haven’t gotten completely caught up with all the comments and reciprocal sharing from last week. And I haven’t yet figured out when to schedule the Zoom chat that I’ve promised some friends in order to follow-up on the ideas and feelings that surfaced for us all.

Basically, I continue to be blown away by the impact my sharing has had on people. It’s extremely humbling.

Trial and error

There’s nothing like constantly attempting things that are completely out of your comfort zone to keep you humble.

This blog is an excellent case in point. I shared back at the beginning about how it took months to even start writing. And a few months ago I pushed through my resistance and learned how to make it possible for people to actually subscribe (or follow) the blog.

Well, I got a few subscribers but they weren’t actually receiving a notification when the blog came out. Oops! The only problem was that I had run out of oomph for that particular learning curve and so it just stayed like that for quite some time.

But it’s a new year with new energy, so it was time to try again! Ramesha helped get me going and I started tackling the next learning curve.

Created the email, set up the schedule, and awaited the notification. It came — yay! Opened it and tried to click through to the blog post — Nothing. Niente. Nada.

Back to the drawing board.

Realized that it’s up to me to enter the hyperlinks (duh). Which I did, then rescheduled the email, awaited the notification. It came — yay! Hyperlinks worked — yay!

But then I received an email from a friend (thanks, Erin!): “I love that spontaneously I’m finally getting these emails about your blog. I signed up awhile back but they never came until now. But there’s no link to click?? Lol  😂  maybe I’m missing something?”

Hmmm…guess I didn’t put the hyperlinks where people would actually find them to click on! Arrrgghhhh!

Hopefully the third time really is the charm, but I can’t help but think about the people who really know what they’re doing when it comes to this kind of stuff, which seems really impressive to me right now. On the other hand, most of them have probably never played Mozart’s G major flute concerto. For what it’s worth. 😄