This spoke to me today

Artist Credit: Esther Bennink

Finding beautiful, thoughtful, inspiring expressions of truth such as this is the main reason I continue using Facebook.


Striking a match too hard won’t light it.
In fact, it might break it.
And then there will be no light.

Piling too much on a fire won’t keep it lit.
In fact, it might suffocate it.
And then there will be no fire.

Burning a candle constantly won’t keep it burning.
In fact, it will exhaust it.
And then there will be no flame.

Sometimes gently is better.
Sometimes little by little is needed.
Sometimes rest is necessary.

Sometimes gentleness gives us light
and space to breathe.

Sometimes gentleness allows us to come back to life again when we weren’t even sure if we still had that fire in us.

So don’t be too hard on yourself.
Don’t pile on the pressure.
Don’t burn yourself out.

Because your flame can’t stay alive like that.

Becky Hemsley Poetry

Proof it really happened :)

https://youtu.be/Szf57yJA1_s
Spiritual Renewal Week concert on Tuesday, June 28, 2022 at Ananda Village

In addition to creating challenges in presenting our Spiritual Renewal Week concert, the fire and power outage also affected how it was shared.

Usually concerts during big events are live streamed so that people worldwide can enjoy them, but that couldn’t happen due to being on generator power and other circumstances beyond my limited technical understanding.

The combination of a nearby fire and the power outage also left many Village residents unsure whether the concert was still happening, not to mention those who were considering evacuating.

I was sort of surprised to realize how strange it was to get home afterwards and not be able to pull up the live streamed video. And not to receive comments and voicemails about it.

It really did start to feel a little bit unreal, like I just imagined the whole thing. Turns out the proof is in the video!

About my super big yesterday

Choir warming up before the concert

​​To begin with, we’re in the middle of Spiritual Renewal Week here at Ananda Village, our first big in-person event since 2019! Each day there are morning classes, plus special events most evenings.

Which brings me to yesterday. We started out by singing before the morning class with the Joy Singers, leaving immediately after class to drive to town and grab burrito bowl lunches-to-go on the way to my weekly appointment at the Infusion Center.

For this week’s treatment I received four pre-meds, followed by all three of my chemo drugs: Velcade, Darzalex, and Zometa. I was a little nervous since the concert was that night and this was my first time getting all three medications at once.

The treatment lasted two and a half hours. By then we had learned there was a fire not too far from Ananda Village, so we drove home to prepare for the concert while listening to fire reports and hearing about what areas were under mandatory evacuations (as opposed to just warnings).

We only had about an hour to eat dinner, change clothes, and get over the amphitheater to set up the stage, but we started hearing speculation that the concert should be delayed or cancelled because of the fire. So, we called and talked to the Village community manager, a very calm and wise soul who explained why he felt the concert was a “go”, and we totally agreed. And then the power went out! 

But let me back up and give you some context about our concert…

We usually have a well thought out “theme” for our SRW concerts, but this year was simply about finally singing together once again — in person — as a global community! The choir wasn’t large, but we hadn’t had singers from so many different locations singing together in one place since our 50th anniversary event in 2019!

We had been really looking forward to this concert, but we encountered all kinds of obstacles along the way — my health issues; the ongoing COVID realities (increasing cases, singers testing positive, and others avoiding singing as a precaution); having to relocate the concert from the Temple of Light to the outdoor amphitheater, which was the only way we could have a large choir; musicians having accidents that put them out of commission; you name it!

But all along we felt very strongly that we had to keep moving forward with restoring our music to it’s primary place in the life of our global community. Why? Because Ananda Music is such a tremendous tool for uplifting consciousness, which is so needed in the world right now.

View of the fire from Sunset Ridge

The added confusion and challenge of a fire and power outage just a couple of hours before the start of the concert had us wondering whether there weren’t downward pulling energies trying to block the powerfully positive and joyful expression of our music.

If so, we weren’t going to allow it to happen! I was inwardly resolved that the concert would happen — even if we didn’t have power. I figured that we would simply sing unamplified with however many singers showed up and whoever made it to listen would just have to come right up close to hear us!

But the good news is the amphitheater was on a generator, so we did have power. Plus all the singers made it and the concert went miraculously well.

Oh, and I felt absolutely fine the whole night, with no side effects whatsoever from my big chemo treatment. Miracle on top of miracle!

And that was my super big day.

Prayers sent & fingers crossed

This is a photo of the sweet Airbnb cottage in Santa Barbara that we’ve rented for five nights starting this Sunday.

Except we just learned there’s a fire about 26 miles from Santa Barbara, which could very likely affect the air quality!

What a bummer to drive all that way and not be able to spend as much time as we want outside. On the other hand, I really don’t want to cancel our vacation!

Ergo, prayers sent and fingers crossed!