Revolutionary thought

Maybe I’ve shared this before, but I’m really feeling it this evening!

As a naturally optimistic and cheerful sort of person, I’ve struggled with this all my life.

Somewhere I got the idea that I should be okay all the time. So then I learned the skill of denial, so the things that actually were bothering me wouldn’t get in the way of my “being okay-ness.”

Now I’m much more comfortable sharing myself — warts and all — with people. It’s taken me well into my sixties to get there, but as they say: better late than never!

How can it be fall already?

I ran into a dear friend today and we commiserated (from behind our masks) about how things are feeling harder lately, rather than easier.

I think it’s partly due to the subtle but very real stress of trying to maintain normalcy in these extremely abnormal times. Staying centered and calm, cheerful and even-minded takes a heck of a lot of energy these days.

And then there’s the fact that it’s already fall, but I feel like I wasn’t able to be entirely present for spring or summer. I want to say something more about it, but — really — all I can do is shake my head.

In disbelief.