(not necessarily in that order)
I’ve been consistently going to bed early ever since returning from Europe. Even while in the hospital.
So why am I all of a sudden getting to bed so late tonight? Especially considering that I’m really tired.
Sometimes I wish I could shake some sense into myself!
There’s something about life getting busier and more intense that causes me to gradually get to bed later and later.
It’s completely illogical and backward because I need the sleep more than ever.
But there you have it.
I can already declare this seclusion to be a major success! Why? Because not only have I successfully slowed way down, I actually got to bed by 9:00pm last night!
What you have to understand is that I don’t believe I’ve gone to bed that early ever in my adult life. Well, okay, maybe if I was desperately ill or super-jetlagged but that’s it.
Going to bed so early meant I was up early enough to watch the sunrise, without even trying.
Which reminded me of this Mary Oliver poem I discovered right before going into seclusion. Quite apropos.
I hope it gives you some chuckles as well, because that’s all I’ve got tonight (in the interest of achieving an early bedtime).
Writing the blog earlier in the day — so I don’t have to turn on the computer late in the evening — is actually helping me with my bedtime.
I didn’t quite make it before 11:00 last night, but I was close!
So, here I am….doing Whatever. It. Takes. once again.
I’m determined to be in bed no later than 11:00 tonight.
That means I must not turn on the computer for any reason once I get home from rehearsal.
Which means writing today’s blog before rehearsal.
Ergo… 😂
Now that I’m back to full energy and my regular “work,” I’m also falling back into old habits of getting to bed late.
It’s frustrating enough to make me want to pull my hair out!
Aarrghh…!
Final day of Inner Renewal Retreat is tomorrow (though it’s immediately followed by two days of Kriyaban Retreat, so the week’s still far from over for us).
The talks have been amazing. Lots of deep inspiration and wisdom and joy.
However, sleep has been at a premium. So, tonight I am determined not to turn on my computer after this evening’s program of a Q & A with Jyotish and Devi. Because once I turn on the computer bedtime gets later and later.
And that is why today’s blog post is about why I’m writing today’s blog post early. 😂
A quiet evening of dry cereal for dinner, then watching an episode of “All Creatures Great and Small.”
Now I’m listening to the rain and looking forward to an earlyish bedtime.
What a wonderful bedtime affirmation this is.
And so ends an amazing weekend.