Setting the stage

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My involvement with Ananda accelerated and deepened throughout 1999. I received Kriya initiation at Ananda Village in May; returned for the Kriya retreat in June; and moved into the Ananda Palo Alto community in August.

Early that fall I learned that there would be an Ananda choir performing Swami Kriyananda’s Oratorio in Italy in May 2000. Although I was not a singer (my only choir experience had been in Mrs. Hall’s fourth grade class!) and had never heard the Oratorio, I absolutely knew that I had to be part of that tour.

However, since there was already a flutist, I had to sing. And although I had more of a low voice, the alto spots were filled, so I was going to have to sing soprano.

And to top it all off, I was hearing about it rather late in the game, with a good portion of the $5000 cost already due as a deposit. I hadn’t even had a chance to meet the tour organizer, but I sent her a check for $125 with the assurance that more would follow (there’ll be further details about this when I write about the creation of my Illuminating Grace CD).

Indeed, the pace of life was speeding up as a result of my increasing commitment to Ananda. And it was at this point that I received two more opportunities to deepen my inner connection with Swami Kriyananda.

A productive Sunday

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This morning was about singing for Sunday service (which included a beautiful talk by our friend, Erin!).

I spent the afternoon absorbed in reading the memoir of Maurice White and learning more about his vision for founding one of my all-time favorite bands: Earth, Wind & Fire. Really inspiring stuff, which I’ll probably share more about in the future.

Finally I needed to spend some time on my Italian, which has become a priority since we’ll be going to Europe in April to visit Ramesha’s family after an absence of almost four years. I’m determined to be able actually to converse with my in-laws and our close friends, so I’m quite grateful to have discovered a wonderful program called Italiano Automatico, which I’m listening to every day.

So the next installment of how I continued to get to know Swami Kriyananda will have to wait until tomorrow.

How I first “met” Swamiji

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Let’s see, it must have been sometime early in 1999 that I first “met” Swami Kriyananda.

My very time at an Ananda event was Shivaratri in February 1998, after which I attended a few Sunday services, then started taking a meditation class in May. Within a few months I knew Yogananda was my guru, and I took discipleship in November 1998.

However, Swami Kriyananda was a mystery person to me. Given his Indian name, I was surprised to learn that he was an American. Everyone spoke of him with great love and respect but living in Italy at the time, he wasn’t around for me to gain my own impression.

Not surprisingly, the music of Ananda made a real impression on me right from the start; as I was getting more involved I felt to tune into it more deeply. I had picked up a free “sampler” cassette tape with a selection of musical pieces on it and decided to listen to it while working on an art project.

There was quite a variety — in style, instrumentation, size of group — but then there were a number of solos in a male voice that I guessed must be this Swami Kriyananda guy. It’s a little embarrassing to confess that my professional musician ears were in critique mode as I listened, wondering if his being the founder was the reason he got to sing the solos (boy, was I clueless!).

Then the song “Love Is a Magician” started. It has a slightly jazzy electric piano intro, to which I had a rather cynical and condescending response, but once Swami began singing the words I immediately burst into tears and sobbed throughout the entire song.

It was as though the loving power of his consciousness was an arrow that bypassed my mental processes to directly pierce me right in the center of my heart. In that moment I knew Swami Kriyananda was the truest and deepest of friends, and that I could trust him with my life.

Which was, and still is, the truth.

Going back in time

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Yesterday I shared a photo of the first time I sang for Swami Kriyananda, but I realize I skipped over some of the most compelling experiences of my early years at Ananda.

Namely: how I first “met” Swami (in “consciousness”); how I got to “know” him better (still before meeting him in person); and how I raised money to go on the Oratorio choir tour to Italy (aka The Saga of “Illuminating Grace”).

More tomorrow; stay tuned!

The first time I sang for Swamiji

I believe this was also the first time I met Swami Kriyananda in person (I met him “in consciousness” the first time I heard him sing “Love Is a Magician,” but that’s another story).

This was March 4, 2000 and Swamiji was visiting from Assisi; the first time he’d come to the USA in a few years. I was part of the small singing ensemble that was invited to sing for him that morning in Asha and David’s apartment in the Palo Alto community.

I wish I could remember more details (what did we sing? when did he first arrive? was that really my first time meeting him?), but I didn’t understand at the time just how precious these experiences were.

I wish I had taken notes of everything.

Progress is being made

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It took some doing, but I finally located the stash of photos that will accompany my Swami stories. YAY!

I’m also making progress in terms of developing my voice: Ramesha and I have found a mutually agreeable time for him to work with me on a regular basis. Double YAY!!

And…our music team is getting back in the flow of meeting and planning. Triple YAY!!!

Getting ready — again!

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I just discovered a blog post from December 2021 in which I outlined my strategy for gathering stories about Swamiji and finally getting them written down. I made a chronological list and was excited to start looking for photos.

But then life took over, as usual.

No matter! I’m ready to try again, keeping in mind Swamiji’s quote: “I haven’t succeeded YET.”

Reading my own blog posts

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I was thinking to start sharing memories of times and experiences with Swamiji today, but decided I’d better review some old blog posts first — in case I had already written about those memories and experiences.

In fact, I haven’t done so. But it was so fascinating to revisit my thoughts and emotions and observations from back in 2019 (when I first started writing this blog) that I could hardly make myself stop!

So I guess I’ll get started tomorrow.

Memories of Swamiji

With Swamiji in Assisi (possibly during the oratorio tour in 2000)

I’ve been catching up on my reading of several books about Swami Kriyananda (the founder of Ananda, who I also consider one of my dearest friends).

In the course of reading, many memories are surfacing. Some of them are quite precious and I’m hoping to dedicate more time to getting them down in writing in 2023.

Making a comeback

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In order to share what’s making a comeback, I first have to confess that I had been struggling with my sadhana (meditation practices) for some time.

The good news is that things have shifted and I’m thrilled to be back in a regular meditation flow once again.

It’s just as Paramhansa Yogananda said: “The more you meditate, the more you’ll want to meditate. But the less you meditate, the less you’ll want to meditate.”