Deepening my connection to Swamiji – 2

Photo of Crystal Hermitage Upper Gardens by Kent Williams

I’m not sure whether I mentioned it in a previous blog post, but one of my first big spiritual lessons after arriving at Ananda Palo Alto was that no one seemed particularly interested in the fact that I was a professional flutist.

For starters, there was already a woman in the community who played flute. And at my first meeting with Asha Praver — basically a “getting-to-know-you” chat — I described some of the musical activities I had offered at my previous church homes, including benefit concerts and the like. Her response? Pretty much no response. I mean, she might have said something like, “Oh, that’s interesting,” but I received no energy from her at all regarding my flute playing.

It took me back a bit, but it was also rather refreshing not being primarily identified as a flutist.

However, within a few months a friend in the community somehow learned more about my musical background and convinced me to give her a copy of my resume, which she then shared with the music people up at Ananda Village.

What I had no way of knowing was that they had been slowly working on a recording of Swami Kriyananda’s music using mostly synthesized sounds for the various instruments. They had a live harpist (the late Donnelle Page) and professional cellist, David Eby, had come to Ananda Portland a year or two before I arrived in Palo Alto. So, now they invited me to provide live flute to the album.

And that is how it came about that in late October 1999 I was blessed to come up to Ananda Village for a long weekend at Crystal Hermitage, recording “Secrets of Love” with music arranger, David Miller, and recording engineer, Agni Ferraro.

What a blessed experience it was! Crystal Hermitage was Swamiji’s home whenever he was in residence at the Village (although this was during the time that I still hadn’t met him because he was living in Italy). I got to stay in a small apartment at Crystal Hermitage, doing my Energization Exercises in the beautiful upper gardens and meditating in the dome.

Of course I spent hours and hours in the studio, with photos of Yogananda and Swami to keep me focused on the goal of allowing their vibration to flow through my playing. Although recording is always intense, there was also plenty of joy and laughter in working with my fellow devotees.

I was transported by the melodies I was playing, especially “Love Is the Aspiration toward Perfection” (click here to listen) and felt Swamiji close to me throughout the entire process. By the end, I understood that this was the raison d’Γͺtre for all my years of training and experience as a flutist.

Thank you, God. πŸ™

Happy to be vaxxed, yet again!

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I still find this to be the perfect image to accompany my sense of joy and relief at getting my 2nd dose of the COVID vaccine.

It’s certainly been an interesting process, having to repeatedly remind pharmacy employees that I’m getting the primary series, not a booster. Which sometimes means waiting longer; like today, when they thawed out the booster instead of the 2nd primary dose.

Oh well, bottom line is — I got the jab. Yay!

Deepening my connection to Swamiji – 1

My first opportunity for feeling closer to Swamiji came when the Ananda Palo Alto Lay Members group spent a weekend at what was then called the Ananda Seclusion Retreat (now called the Ananda Meditation Retreat). This is the first property Swami Kriyananda purchased and where he first started Ananda in 1968.

I drove up with my friend, Marilyn (now known as Manisha). It was my first time visiting the Seclusion Retreat and I’m pretty sure it was her first time as well.

To a city girl like me, Ananda Village already felt pretty much like traveling to the boonies, and the Seclusion Retreat was even farther into the wilderness. We had gotten a little lost on the way and ended up arriving after dark. As we made our way along the dark paths, I remember being startled by a small herd of deer running right by us. We definitely were outside of civilization as I knew it!

That first night there was some kerfuffle around accommodations. One of our group members was in a wheelchair, but the door of the house to which she had been assigned was too narrow for her chair. Things got switched around in such a way that another woman and I ended up in that house instead.

Now, I heard people calling the house “Swami’s Dome,” but I assumed that was just its name. Similar to being at Ananda Assisi, where they have rooms called “St Francis” and so forth. It wasn’t until the end of the retreat that I discovered I had literally spent the weekend in Swami’s dome, where he had lived for years.

Furthermore, it was usually only available for ministers who wanted to take seclusion. So, it was only due to a completely unusual combination of circumstances that I ended up staying there, sleeping in the loft area where Swamiji slept.

It truly felt like a gift from Divine Mother. πŸ™

Aargh!

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I’ve been caught up in too many different projects and the day got away from me.

Now it’s too late to write a real blog post; until tomorrow then…

Blue skies and the first star

I felt so blessed to wake up to blue skies today.

I mean, there’s nothing like three weeks of constant rain and clouds to remind one of how wonderful sunshine can be. 🌞

And then to arrive home at dusk and see the first star against indigo skies…bliss, indeed!

(I’m not the greatest photographer but I hope you can see it, just barely above the bare branches of the tree in the middle of the photo.)

Setting the stage

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My involvement with Ananda accelerated and deepened throughout 1999. I received Kriya initiation at Ananda Village in May; returned for the Kriya retreat in June; and moved into the Ananda Palo Alto community in August.

Early that fall I learned that there would be an Ananda choir performing Swami Kriyananda’s Oratorio in Italy in May 2000. Although I was not a singer (my only choir experience had been in Mrs. Hall’s fourth grade class!) and had never heard the Oratorio, I absolutely knew that I had to be part of that tour.

However, since there was already a flutist, I had to sing. And although I had more of a low voice, the alto spots were filled, so I was going to have to sing soprano.

And to top it all off, I was hearing about it rather late in the game, with a good portion of the $5000 cost already due as a deposit. I hadn’t even had a chance to meet the tour organizer, but I sent her a check for $125 with the assurance that more would follow (there’ll be further details about this when I write about the creation of my Illuminating Grace CD).

Indeed, the pace of life was speeding up as a result of my increasing commitment to Ananda. And it was at this point that I received two more opportunities to deepen my inner connection with Swami Kriyananda.

A productive Sunday

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This morning was about singing for Sunday service (which included a beautiful talk by our friend, Erin!).

I spent the afternoon absorbed in reading the memoir of Maurice White and learning more about his vision for founding one of my all-time favorite bands: Earth, Wind & Fire. Really inspiring stuff, which I’ll probably share more about in the future.

Finally I needed to spend some time on my Italian, which has become a priority since we’ll be going to Europe in April to visit Ramesha’s family after an absence of almost four years. I’m determined to be able actually to converse with my in-laws and our close friends, so I’m quite grateful to have discovered a wonderful program called Italiano Automatico, which I’m listening to every day.

So the next installment of how I continued to get to know Swami Kriyananda will have to wait until tomorrow.

How I first “met” Swamiji

Swami Kriyananda

Let’s see, it must have been sometime early in 1999 that I first “met” Swami Kriyananda.

My very time at an Ananda event was Shivaratri in February 1998, after which I attended a few Sunday services, then started taking a meditation class in May. Within a few months I knew Yogananda was my guru, and I took discipleship in November 1998.

However, Swami Kriyananda was a mystery person to me. Given his Indian name, I was surprised to learn that he was an American. Everyone spoke of him with great love and respect but living in Italy at the time, he wasn’t around for me to gain my own impression.

Not surprisingly, the music of Ananda made a real impression on me right from the start; as I was getting more involved I felt to tune into it more deeply. I had picked up a free “sampler” cassette tape with a selection of musical pieces on it and decided to listen to it while working on an art project.

There was quite a variety — in style, instrumentation, size of group — but then there were a number of solos in a male voice that I guessed must be this Swami Kriyananda guy. It’s a little embarrassing to confess that my professional musician ears were in critique mode as I listened, wondering if his being the founder was the reason he got to sing the solos (boy, was I clueless!).

Then the song “Love Is a Magician” started. It has a slightly jazzy electric piano intro, to which I had a rather cynical and condescending response, but once Swami began singing the words I immediately burst into tears and sobbed throughout the entire song.

It was as though the loving power of his consciousness was an arrow that bypassed my mental processes to directly pierce me right in the center of my heart. In that moment I knew Swami Kriyananda was the truest and deepest of friends, and that I could trust him with my life.

Which was, and still is, the truth.

Going back in time

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Yesterday I shared a photo of the first time I sang for Swami Kriyananda, but I realize I skipped over some of the most compelling experiences of my early years at Ananda.

Namely: how I first “met” Swami (in “consciousness”); how I got to “know” him better (still before meeting him in person); and how I raised money to go on the Oratorio choir tour to Italy (aka The Saga of “Illuminating Grace”).

More tomorrow; stay tuned!

The first time I sang for Swamiji

I believe this was also the first time I met Swami Kriyananda in person (I met him “in consciousness” the first time I heard him sing “Love Is a Magician,” but that’s another story).

This was March 4, 2000 and Swamiji was visiting from Assisi; the first time he’d come to the USA in a few years. I was part of the small singing ensemble that was invited to sing for him that morning in Asha and David’s apartment in the Palo Alto community.

I wish I could remember more details (what did we sing? when did he first arrive? was that really my first time meeting him?), but I didn’t understand at the time just how precious these experiences were.

I wish I had taken notes of everything.